this ain't no funky reggae party..

lightupsigns @ 2008-04-29T00:49:00

2008-04-29T04:50:42Z

not entirely convinced....

i';m not a jerk:(:(:( foreal

lightupsigns @ 2008-04-18T21:30:00

2008-04-19T01:31:11Z

also, i wish that free love was socially accepted

lightupsigns @ 2008-04-18T20:38:00

2008-04-19T00:46:18Z

I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand
All the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big... dreams
it's always you in my big dreams

And you tell me
That it's over
Wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clover
And you're restless
And I'm naked
You've got to get out
You can't stand to see me shaking
no, could you let me go
I didn't think so

and you don't want to be here in the future
So you say
the present's just a pleasant
Interruption to the past
And you don't want to look much closer
'Cause you're afraid to find out all this hope
You had sent into the sky by now had... crashed
and it did because of me

And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you're alone, no
And I'm sleeping in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

I had these dreams, in them I learned to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rockstar
And there was hope in me
That I could take you there
But damn it you're so young
But I don't think I care
and if I hurt you then i'm sorry
please don't think that this was easy

And then you bring me home
'Cause we both know what it's like to be alone, no
And I'm dreaming in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

And Konstantine is walking down the stairs
Doesn't she look good
Standing in her underwear?
And I was thinking, what I was thinking
But we've been drinking
And it doesn't get me anywhere

My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do
Was touch her long blonde hair
And I've been thinking
It hurts me thinking
That these nights when we were drinking
No they never got us anywhere, no

This is because I can spell konfusion with a K
And I can like it
It's to dying in anothers arms
and why i had to try it
It's to jimmy eat world
and those nights in my car
when the first star you see
may not be a star
I'm not your star
Isn't that what you said?
what you thought this song meant

And if this is what it takes
just to lie with my mistakes
and live with what I did to you
All the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock it's 11:11
And now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine
My Konstantine

They'll never hurt you like I do
No, They'll never hurt you like I do
No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No

This is to a girl who got into my head
with all the pretty things she did
Hey, You know, you keep me up in bed
This is to a girl who got into my head
with all these fucked up things I did
Hey maybe baby, you could keep me up in bed
My Konstantine

Spin around me like a dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said,
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you

I miss you

And then you bring me home
And we'll go to sleep but this time not alone, no No,
And then you'll kiss me in your living room, oh
I know you miss me in your living room
Cause these nights I think maybe that I miss you in my living room
We don't have much room
I said, does anybody need that room?
Because we all need a little more room
To live

...My Konstantine.

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done.

lightupsigns @ 2008-04-16T19:45:00

2008-04-16T23:49:24Z

everything is terrible.
terrible day.
terrible peopple.
terrible grades.
terrible boys.
terrible jocks.
terrible 1 month of seclusion.
TERRIBLE situation.
andddddddddddddddddddddddd still, im happy about the situation. in a way.

lightupsigns @ 2008-04-15T19:18:00

2008-04-15T23:25:24Z

well day one of seclusion hasn't been very eventful. a few daeth glares and stomping around the house. no actually partaking in being civilized though. today at school was really lame because i am sick and i had a head ache all day. prison's in canada suck -i was just so rudely interupted by my father who has misplaced his tuner. and asked me to bring dishes downstaires, i said no out of spite- anyways.. we watched a movie on prisons in the world. cough cough. just the u.s and canada though. this grounding business is pretty... stupid. i don't think i have ever been so unimpressed with the actions of parents in my life. no WONDER my sister resents them.
the bright screen makes my head ache worse. i think i am going to nap for a little while.
..bye.

ps. omgomgomgomg..... no

lightupsigns @ 2008-04-14T21:16:00

2008-04-15T01:17:37Z

with you and me, we can only lose.

lightupsigns @ 2008-04-05T11:47:00

2008-04-05T15:48:18Z

:(:(:(.. ugh.

lightupsigns @ 2008-03-24T02:14:00

2008-03-24T06:18:30Z

well hey.
so i have hardly gone to school this month. everything has been so ruckus and then tehre was march break and easter.
after march break, i got into a scuffle with my sister and my whole family got involved. she ended up deleting everything of mine frmothe computer, so my mom bought me my own laptop and it should be here sometime in april. it's sunshine yellow. after that fiasco, i had to stay home frmo school to get homeowrk that was deleted done, and i also had to get extensions on projects. she's mature. anyways, so right when i thought everything was resolved, thursday night happened. like... who am i even?

i miss alkaline trio
and
hanging out with my other friends

lightupsigns @ 2008-03-21T15:47:00

2008-03-21T19:49:11Z

when you came in
when we settled down
when you meant what you said
before the breakdown
oh, you don't need me.
i just break you .
see?
i love you.

&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&
Sit down, please make yourself comfortable...
I might need some time
to dance around what I need to say,
I love you to death, I think I need a break.

I spend my days worried out loud,
I gag in my head, I choke it back down.
It hurts me inside to save your insides,
so close my lips tight, move eyes to the side.

This is the way we disappear.
It's easy if you burnout like a star.
This is the way we disappear.
It's easy like a fifty foot fall.

And I'm waiting, for whatever better time...
to evict these words that have rented out my mind.
And I'm hating every minute that I don't speak out loud,
like a year laying down
like a year laying down
like a year laying down

Relax on this bed of nails, on this plastic sheet,
your blood leaves a trail right back to me.
A problem you see.
Would you please allow a moment to think?

lightupsigns @ 2008-03-14T01:55:00

2008-03-14T05:57:56Z

ebay and paypal are confuuuuusing:(

method acting.

2008-03-11T03:54:11Z

There once was knowledge on my tongue, in an ever-increasing dose,

Serenity in my lungs, and excitement up my nose. I'd put poison in my veins, whilst truth trickled down my throat,

But no chemical, no pain, could stop this love from coming out.

wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwhat am i even?

lightupsigns @ 2008-03-10T15:49:00

2008-03-10T19:50:12Z

i do not like sisters who harsh my crunk.

the prophets make is difficult.

2008-03-10T03:57:23Z

okay, so. I think I may have lost ANY self worth i managed to salvage for myself, to be honest, I'm surprised I am still using a capital i when reffering to myself... HHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
even though i am still confused, I am pretty happy.. I mean.. I can't really complain.
so on thursday I am going to duluth where my mom said she will buy me stuff:) yay. I don't have much to write... :)KAY BYE

so call it quits or get a grip.

2008-03-05T03:00:43Z

HEY. alright. sooo. i'm a tool. OK. i thought i had more to write but apparently not...

i have 48 in math ?!??!?!!?!?!

.... or wait. its a 69 now.. lol 69.

lightupsigns @ 2008-03-02T18:53:00

2008-03-02T23:54:13Z

so.. my life and my family is way more messed up then i thought..
i guess this could be part of the reason i'm so lost.

lightupsigns @ 2008-02-27T22:11:00

2008-02-28T03:12:25Z

well..
1. kyle i hate you cause you're the one i love.... dUHHH
2. sara ..a hahahaaaaaaa
3. kyle has lj :S:S:S:S:S::S:SS

lightupsigns @ 2008-02-23T01:40:00

2008-02-23T06:45:15Z

Let it die and get out of my mind
We don't see eye to eye
Or hear ear to ear

Don't you wish that we could forget that kiss
And see this for what it is
That we're not in love

The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start

It was hard to tell just how I felt
To not recognize myself
I started to fade away

And after all it won't take long to fall in love
Now I know what I don't want
I learned that with you

The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start
The tragedy starts from the very first spark
Losing your mind for the sake of your heart
The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start

Anyways, so here I am, sitting here.. being what i could call inspired, and almost clear. The inspired part does not get me too excited as i feel this way alot and then no creation comes of it, i think theres a huge lack of motivation on that area of my body, for now.. But not for long. :) The almost clear part does not get me too excited either.. because I know that I will never be for sure with either decision... or ANY decision for that matter.I guess I just have to do whatever I want..That would seem EASY wouldn't it? Anyways... on a more... 'mature' note.. I have maybe decided on my future career! :) This hasn't really gone anywhre, i just haven't posted in awhile.

lightupsigns @ 2008-02-21T22:26:00

2008-02-22T03:33:56Z

i decided, that livejournal is a nice place for me to wite at... i mean, no one really knows this is me, and i only have SOME people on here... and those people know what i am talking about anyawys, so i think i am going to go alllllll out on thisssssssss shit.:)

OHKKAYY...
so. i am right confused. and EVERY post on here starts with "so.. i am confused" and i am always confused about ONE person and how they feel about me.. blah blah blah. but TODAY, i am infact confused about several peoples. not only including my love interst(s) as WELL as my friendlies. i dont care to explain my sitiations, right now.....
FUCK IT. :) : o : o
i should... stop cursing. for rael. :( i HATE ITT

lightupsigns @ 2008-02-17T13:42:00

2008-02-17T18:43:26Z

We kept it safe and slow
The quiet things that no one ever knows
....

lightupsigns @ 2007-12-02T20:16:00

2007-12-03T01:17:10Z

seriously... fuck everything.

lightupsigns @ 2007-11-11T21:41:00

2007-11-12T02:41:34Z

yayy finalllyy :$:$

lightupsigns @ 2007-10-04T19:11:00

2007-10-04T23:13:21Z

so, i really like the idea of jainism. its really cool. :) there is no supreme creator, just eternal creators. you have to live a good life and do good things.

but, i also like buddhism.

i just dont know.

i wont actually follow a religion, but to practice it, is rreally cool. and to learn abuot it.
anyways.,..

this morning was good :$:$:$:$

AND
my mom and dad are home, finally

lightupsigns @ 2007-10-03T21:10:00

2007-10-04T01:10:50Z

I WANT HIM:(:(

lightupsigns @ 2007-09-09T00:53:00

2007-09-09T04:54:56Z

lolohgosh.....
whaa happend?!

lightupsigns @ 2007-09-04T15:42:00

2007-09-04T19:43:03Z

dear sara boychuk,
you are my BFFFFFFFFF FO REALZ.even if you refuse to rap with me in public:(