everything is terrible.
terrible day.
terrible peopple.
terrible grades.
terrible boys.
terrible jocks.
terrible 1 month of seclusion.
TERRIBLE situation.
andddddddddddddddddddddddd still, im happy about the situation. in a way.

well day one of seclusion hasn't been very eventful. a few daeth glares and stomping around the house. no actually partaking in being civilized though. today at school was really lame because i am sick and i had a head ache all day. prison's in canada suck -i was just so rudely interupted by my father  who has misplaced his tuner. and asked me to bring dishes downstaires, i said no out of spite- anyways.. we watched a movie on prisons in the world. cough cough. just the u.s and canada though. this grounding business is pretty... stupid. i don't think i have ever been so unimpressed with the actions of parents in my life. no WONDER my sister resents them.
the bright screen makes my head ache worse. i think i am going to nap for a little while.
..bye.



ps. omgomgomgomg..... no

 :(:(:(.. ugh.

 when you came in
when we settled down
when you meant what you said
before the breakdown
oh, you don't need me.
i just break you . 
see?
i love you. 





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Sit down, please make yourself comfortable...
I might need some time
to dance around what I need to say,
I love you to death, I think I need a break.

I spend my days worried out loud,
I gag in my head, I choke it back down.
It hurts me inside to save your insides,
so close my lips tight, move eyes to the side.

This is the way we disappear.
It's easy if you burnout like a star.
This is the way we disappear.
It's easy like a fifty foot fall.

And I'm waiting, for whatever better time...
to evict these words that have rented out my mind.
And I'm hating every minute that I don't speak out loud,
like a year laying down
like a year laying down
like a year laying down

Relax on this bed of nails, on this plastic sheet,
your blood leaves a trail right back to me.
A problem you see.
Would you please allow a moment to think?

ebay and paypal are confuuuuusing:(

 There once was knowledge on my tongue, in an ever-increasing dose,

HEY. alright. sooo. i'm a tool. OK. i thought i had more to write but apparently not...


i have 48 in math ?!??!?!!?!?!






.... or wait. its a 69 now.. lol 69.

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RAINNNBOWWW

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curious

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Let it die and get out of my mind
We don't see eye to eye
Or hear ear to ear

Don't you wish that we could forget that kiss
And see this for what it is
That we're not in love

The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start

It was hard to tell just how I felt
To not recognize myself
I started to fade away

And after all it won't take long to fall in love
Now I know what I don't want
I learned that with you

The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start
The tragedy starts from the very first spark
Losing your mind for the sake of your heart
The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start


Anyways, so here I am, sitting here.. being what i could call inspired, and almost clear. The inspired part does not get me too excited as i feel this way alot and then no creation comes of it, i think theres a huge lack of motivation on that area of my body, for now.. But not for long. :) The almost clear part does not get me too excited either.. because I know that I will never be for sure with either decision... or ANY decision for that matter.I guess I just have to do whatever I want..That would seem EASY wouldn't it? Anyways... on a more... 'mature' note.. I have maybe decided on my future career! :) This hasn't really gone anywhre, i just haven't posted in awhile.

We kept it safe and slow
The quiet things that no one ever knows
....